Friday, June 21, 2013

Single with Twins...Oh and and 8 year old

Greetings all! It has been awhile since I posted last. The reason for that is I had been busy making, baking and birthing babies! On January 15th 2013 (my birthday to be exact) Aidan Daniel and Zane Michael were born (yup twins)! 

AND yes I am single again. Perhaps its my mothers curse. Daughter see Daughter do. My Mother was a single mother, and while I had older siblings they are only half siblings for we all have different fathers. The same is with mine now. The twins father is not the same guy that helped me create my now oldest. So guess that saying is true like Mother like daughter. Okay enough of the somber stuff. I might be single with three kids, but they are all thriving and well. While I am doing much on my own I do have family that has been amazing in helping. Especially my sister who was not so happy at being a auntie again twice over. She also was a haven to newly big brother Zach. Sadly he did not get to see me or his brothers at all till we came home. So he could not prepare his little mind. The homecoming was a shock to him. We are all better now...somewhat...him and Zane are like two peas in a pod. Zane just loves his big brother. Big brother was also the first to make him laugh! Aidan is my shadow. Already I can tell he is so much like me. While Zane is more like his big brother.

My boys from Left Aidan,Zane, Zach




I sometimes though I feel I have failed.  While a blessing from God I feel I failed on my part. I am not where I should be and I am not sure in how to get back on track. The boys are very demanding, time consuming. I wonder how can I leave them. It was hard leaving with my first when he was a baby now I have two! I want to be with them to love and nurture. I want to see their first steps, first words this time that I missed with my oldest. This is impossible I know, but hey a mother can dream.